Love Will Tear Us Apart

Hey, its julie. I've been having some trouble with Jessica. I love her but i hate love. i'm goth not emo. right? yeah. I think if me and jessica could die together and love each other in death, that would be rad. death is way rad. Anyway, Jessica tells me she loves me all the time and she acts really happy when she says it. I wish she could act like she did at fat camp. not happy. I'm starting to think that shes not a real goth. she doesn't wear all black. she wears like black pants and like a red shirt. black and red are good colors because they represent death but not the way she wears them. I dont know what to do. I've been trying to like read the satanic bible in order to find some guidance but i've had no luck yet. ugh.

-killmenow